What the heck is wrong with me? I hate this.?

This is a simple answer, but it's really your depression. The low dose isn't enough. I've been diagnosed with depression too, and at first the medicine didn't work for me because the dose was too small, they had to keep giving me more until I was better. It really is the depression, you can ask your phsyciatrist to up your dosage and they will if they feel it is needed. If you want to you can talk to your boyfriend about how you feel about him, how sometimes he feels like a stranger and you don't know what to do. But if you think that telling him that will cause you guys to break up then don't tell him. Just get your doctor to up your dosage and I'm sure you'll feel better within a few weeks.